i feel a lot better today compared to the past few days..yeah..i still am confused about something..but at least i could already manage to smile..anyway..i'm already starting with my diet..this morning i just ate 3 spoonfuls of rice and a piece of steak..and of course i haven't eaten any junkfood..i find it hard cause i'm a person who really loves to eat..when i'm depressed or when i'm having a really big probelm, i try to forget it by eating..food is the only thing that makes me happy..but i've got no choice..kailangan eh..i'm gaining too much weight..oh god..i've gained 12 pounds in a year..just a year..from 105lbs last year to 117lbs this year..i can't believe it! i don't wanna be a fat pig like i usually am before(when i was in my 1st year of highschool) but it's so hard for me to stop myself from eating..well, i'm trying real hard..i just hope i survive a week without food..well..there's food but it's limited..but i'm really desperate..i need to lose weight..oh lord give me strength..haha..well anyway..change topic..i've already opened mcoy's message last night..thank god..i thought that i could never have a chance to see it because the stupid friendster is having a problem again..but fortunately..it opened this morning..it was just a simple message..he just told me that he would inform me when they're gonna be playing at indo's again..well..that's it..i'm contented..i'm relieved..and that's it for now..wla na akong msabi..ska my cousins are here..i've got to entertain them..until next time..ciao..